What I found on another blog I had started - I guess these feelings are not that old!

New Year's Resolutions
Date Created: 04 Jan, 2005, 06:05 PM

OK - here it is another "new year" - another new year about dieting and getting back into shape. Where did my motivation go? My desire to be thin and fit? Did it go because of the time I spend in the car driving to and from Oceanside - sometimes eating because I'm full of resentment because it seems as if I'm the one that is making the effort to bring "you and me" into "coupleville?" Is it the stress of work and the resentment I feel that I'm raising other people's children who just don't give a flying rip about them? Did it go into that deep hole because Sarah is getting older and getting ready to "fly off into the world" on her own? Or is it just because I am lazy and not wanting to face another rejection or failure that I am just not doing enough for myself? Whatever the reasons, I'm ready to give it another shot. Hopefully by making a commitment to this thing called a "blog" and writing thoughts, feelings, and keeping a food journal for all to read and comment on is just what I need. I love to write - but writing in "longhand" seems slow and awkward these days so journal writing is out. But maybe with this type of journeling . . .
Anyway, here's to a great start to 2005!