2/14/09

Happy Valentine's Day to me! I am sitting here eating ice cream, have had two glasses of wine, and crying! I know that God is in control (isn't that a song) and the Universe hears my pleas, but dang, it is lonely. Yes, these two glasses of wine are in me - and I miss John the way he used to be - so attentive and romantic - but as I got bigger and fatter - his desire change too. I only hope that next year will bring my "last date, my husband." I am so loney and scared God, what shall I do? Please give me your sign - I need your help so much just to make it through the lonely days and nights. Please keep Sarah protected and safe - and may she never have these feelings of loneliness and being alone!