2/12/09

OK - here it is Thurs night - I am faced with a four day week-end. And no, I do not want to go down to John's! Because I know that I will have to do the driving - and the calling to see if we are even getting together. Nothing from him all week - last night he was on iChat - but I didn't respond. I hurt a little today - 11 years ago I received sweet-peas from a first grader. I wonder who got the flowers today. Is there someone new in his life - does he really think he will find anyone better than me? Did Lance think so too? I do feel like I am in a rut - samething samething. I do want to do somehting different. I want to meet someone different - someone who thinks that I am WOW! Help me God to keep off the phone, off his email, off ichat with John. Best friends is what he wants - that is what he is going to get!