Well, I didn't make it - I email John about my plans to fly to see Sarah. Why is it so hard to break this habit? He has really treated me like dirt - it appears that he had been planning for quite a while to see Karen. Friends are standing up for me at school - which is nice! On one hand - I hope that Karen sinks his ship fast - and that the staff are ostracising him something awful! I have to keep thinking that I am being prepared for a wonderful man who is my soul mate - best friend - husband! I'm going to be with someone pretty special - and so is he!!